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Anyone know what kind of Fox this is??? there smell reminds you of a skunk.

I am about to graduate... well shit...

last day of my internship... which means I get a life back... well shit...

I should be content... but I am not... I am feel lost... well shit...

only thing that can be said is that I have a job waiting for me when I graduate....

start June 1st...

Can't wait to reconnect with my friends back home...
going to miss one or two from school.... well shit...

I had to be up at 6:30 am this morning for a family photoshoot.... since I was already up and had time to kill before going to work... I thought I would take some photos myself...

Even though they aren't that great... I thought I would add one here...

I went to physical therapy last Friday... Things went okay...

I found out that I carry all of my stress in my hips and that I have to stretch 3 times a day, doing different stuff for about 10 or 15 minutes....

lets just say... 2x a day okay... 3x a day and you are asking a lot of a busy girl, but I am working on it.

My boss is okay with it, as long as I stretch in the conferance room where a client can't see me... which I find completely reasonable.

I had fun at Dan's on Saturday. I am glad that I went. It was nice to see everyone and they all seemed happy to see me too... I really should force myself to go more often... just sometimes it is hard. I get tired...

I really shouldn't work so hard...

I have a busy week this week...
Monday- Deaf and blind Camp
Tuesdayevening - Physical Therapy
Wed.- rest
Thursday morning- Physical Therapy
Friday Babysit Cole and Leave for VA with Joe and Cole (Phone conferance with Dr. P-job insights)
Saturday VA
Sunday Come home

Start work week over until wed... when I leave for Florida and New Orleans...

the next two weeks are going to be crazy... however... I have ordered my camera parts and I will be able to take even better pictures this year at the beach then I did last year... which means Katie gets to have some fun :)

okay... don't hate me... but I had very little choice....


I am taking up a few subbing hours with Anchor this upcoming week to make some more money on the side.

Since Susann wont offer me more hours (business is slow), and Kate called me... I took it...

It isn't interferring with my work schedule or my friends schedule... just means a little bit of extra money on the side... which is never a bad thing. Friday night's job is in Mayo and Saturday's job is in the morning (10-1)Annapolis.... I have to make sure Rick is okay to leave for Dan's at about 1:30ish...

I am tired, however with my grandmother backing out of helping me with my car, a girl's gotta do, what a girls gotta do.

okay, so the weekend went well...

however... I didn't go to Katie's R. Graduation party like I should have... I feel bad, however Joe stayed over last night and we ment to go...however...

it isn't what you think... I just wasn't up for it... and Joe didn't care. I will send her a graduation package however to try and make up for it. I could have gone without joe, yet I didn't feel like going to a party were I and Katie's boyfriend were going to he the oldest out of everyone under 30... My anxiety couldn't handle it.

I have spent my day watching movies on the internet and relaxing (that means playing with a kitten). Yet I really don't want it to be monday tomorrow... for a few days, I would really like to lay in bed and just sleep.

However, the real world requires me...

So I have been making plans for the weekend (so glad it is Friday) and helping find potential places for Ricky to live. First I was told that it was just Ricky... then I was told that it was going to be Ricky and Dan and now I am told, after I have shown them a bunch of places that Dan's mother is a pessimitic individual (worst then I had already thought).

Now I wont bash, but I will ponder.

Why potentially leave your loving husband because he wants to move? again...

If it makes more sense, then why not?

why expect your brillant son to live at home and take care of you before he has had a chance to experiance the world and become worldly?

I, myself am not worldly and all knowledgeable, so I am unable to answer these questions, but I hope someone can...

I need to see if I can find a better way to take macro shots...

I want to go home now.... please???

I am in the office tonight until 6pm. With the boss being out, I have to stick around to cover the phones.

What a day it has been. I woke up this morning, tired and a feeling just rattled my bones that it was going to be one of those kinds of days. Mom is still sick and so when I went into the office everyone asked how she was doing. I also brought in Rosemary and Peppermint into momma's office to give to some of the nurses and doctor's who work there. I have so much, I can't possibly use it all.

Doctor's appointment went well. Changing meds around, but all for the better and nothing to worry about. The cut on my hand from the breadknife is not going to make my thumb fall off and as for my hips... well what can I say about my hips besides they look great but feel like they belong to a 90 year old women. Doc has me getting some bi-lateral x-rays, but again I am not worried. 10 bucks I just have to go to a few physical therapy appointments where my sister works, not a big deal. I am not falling apart.

Work on the other hand has been crazy. Before Susann left today, a few orders didn't clear as being picked-up... and it was my fault. I figured out the problem and fixed it, however nothing is ever 100% right and every once in awhile, I wish it could be.

After Susann left, my boss, things around the office was pretty much quiet except for the fact that she would get phone calls and people would want to speak to her or the sales rep on call and after a while, he accused me and Rie (who isn't fully trained in sales) of slacking. I can't help them, Susann wont train me in anything sales even though it happens at my very own desk... b/c I am only here for another 3 months. Doesn't want to invest time in training me, just for me to go back to school. It might be different if this was my field, however I am Social Work student. It is okay. I made all necessary phone calls, except one... and got a lot of work done... so now I am sitting here until 6 pm and it is only 4:44pm... The day flew until now.

on a side note...

I have had a lot on my mind. My head either doesn't totally wake up from getting up in the morning... and I can sleep really well. Or... I am a jittery, stressed individual who everyone things is crazy. I get down about it sometimes, however I try and keep a positive outlook. I get off at 4pm (usually) and then I can do whatever. I just have to stay positive.

My moods go up and down... depends if it is payday or if I have bills to pay. Life is full of that right? I mean, if I have learned anything in the last 2 years... life is unfair. Bad things happen to good people. You always have taxes/bills. Something can always go wrong... and you can never, ever, completely and utterly control a situation no matter much you think you can.

I have been asked if I am happy. I have been asked if I am depressed. I don't really have a response to that question most days, especially today. I just am. Being in the middle use to scare me, but I realized that life isn't a movie, there doesn't have to be a climax with a dramatic ending. There just has to be life.

sometimes I think I can take photos... other times I don't... and then there are sometimes when I think I am just really bored at work...

Besides playing with puppies, boss paid me for not working on Monday (national holiday and all) and I get to work an extra day this week... YAY! and I get paid 2 days early... I love her going out of town for so many reasons :)

I am overly productive... so the article that I last posted about ADHD individuals not getting work done 22 days out of the year does not apply to me.

I have called all the people I can at this point about paying thier past due bills. Called everyone that I can to come pick up thier signs. Called everyone I can to get approvals for their signs to be put into production. Vacummed the office and cleaned up. So, now I am offically bullshitting around until the boss comes back from her pedicure and it is time for me to leave for my weekly mental check up. (I have to say that this week is turning out better then last week:) )

On a good note, I get to play with puppies. The boss went to Florida this weekend to pick up her sisters two female, I believe pekenise puppies. So cute, and I get to play with them while at work :) Total perk.

So for those of you out there that are animal lovers at heart. I get to be a receptionist and play with animals at the same time. My boss, if she owns an animal, it comes to work with her because she doesn't feel it is right to leave them at home when she work 8-6pm. Which makes sense.

but it is only 12:21pm and I still have 4 more hours of work before I get to leave. However I don't believe that their is enough news going on in the world for me to read to keep me occupied... hopefully people will come in and want signs made.

I found this, and I hope my boss doesn't...

ADHD Influences Work Productivity
By: Rick Nauert, Ph.D.
Senior News Editor

Reviewed by: John M. Grohol, Psy.D.
on May 27, 2008

Tuesday, May 27 (Psych Central) -- According to a new World Mental Health Survey, workers with attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) do twenty-two days less work per year than people who do not have the disorder.


The study, sponsored by the World Health Organization (WHO) is published online ahead of print in Occupational and Environmental Medicine.

So much work is being lost that the researchers recommend employers consider screening staff for ADHD and providing treatment for those affected, because it would be more cost-effective for their businesses.

People who have ADHD find it difficult to concentrate because they may be hyperactive, easily distracted, forgetful or impulsive. Children with the disorder are being increasingly diagnosed because they are likely to be tested for ADHD if they have problems with their schoolwork. However, many adults with ADHD do not know they have the condition.

More than 7,000 employed and self-employed workers aged 18-44 years were screened for ADHD as part of the World Health Organisation World Mental Health Survey Initiative. They were also asked about their performance at work in the last month.

On average 3.5 per cent of workers had ADHD. It was more prevalent in men and workers in developed rather than developing countries.

People with ADHD were found to spend 22.1 more days not doing work than other workers per year. This was made up of 8.4 days when they were unable to work or carry out their normal activities, plus 21.7 days of reduced work quantity and 13.6 days of reduced work quality.

The researchers, who are part of a WHO research consortium at Harvard Medical School, suggest adult ADHD might be a candidate for targeted workplace screening and treatment programs because cost-effective therapies exist which could improve some aspects of affected workers’ performance.

“It might be cost-effective from the employer perspective to implement workplace screening programmes and provide treatment for workers with ADHD,” they say.

The people studied came from Belgium, Colombia, France, Germany, Italy, Lebanon, Mexico, the Netherlands, Spain and the USA.

The paper is found at: http://press.psprings.co.uk/oem/may/om38448.pdf

Now to add to the post, since I was at work today and the boss went crazy with work. I wanted to post about this since it is something near and dear to my heart.

I really hope that they don't do some of the things they mention because I fear that it would be used to determine if an individual can even get a job. How bad would that suck for individuals who need a job and suffer from ADHD and can't get a good job because of it.

I know that there is medication and therapy, but sometimes that isn't enough,. These individuals want to work, but they go through 5, 10,15 or more jobs and they still can not get there act together and many times it is just because they never got the help that they needed.

So, maybe in the long run, individuals can get the help that they need. I just hope they aren't singled out because of it.

Just to put this out there... I have a date night with Rick and Dan this upcoming Friday night, and we are suppose to see Maid of Honor... however, Sex and the City is coming out... and it is suppose to be FABULOUS!!! and if I can get the guys out for Maid of Honor, what are the chances I would be able to convince them to see Sex in the City??? I mean come on... it is all about the hair and the shoes...

and I have my new pair of sunglasses for the summer... I don't go anywhere without a pair of sunglasses on my head....

Wii characters included :)

I was awakened at 9 am this morning...

I have vaccumed, swept, taken care of my bird, made my bed... to top that off, read my friends posts and it is only 9:37 am.

Now my sister ran to Chick-fa-la since it is quite literally 30 seconds from my house to get breakfast and she is getting me a lemonade. I love there lemonade.

Now on my to do list before 1 pm...

- I have to stop off at my Grandparents neighbors and get some extension clippers to clean up some trees behind our house. ( And avoid the grandparents)

- Stop off at the local hardware store and get white latex cocking for the cracks in the window ledges.

- Clean out the desk in the basement so it can be hauled off to the dump.

(I clean the basement the other night. However, it should be vacuumed again.)

**and if I can, then maybe get lunch before going to Owensville for my therapy appointment.

Before I start worrying anyone. My therapy sessions are more like mental health checks, I get about 4 or 5 a year just to make sure that I am staying on track. They finally got me on the right medicine (ADHD and anxiety is what labeled as having, however I believe I am just individual who likes to get everything done right now) and I just like to do this so everyone knows I am doing okay.

I went see Kay yesterday. She is a friend of my mothers and mom set it up for me to go and talk to her about different programs that are available to those who live in Anne Arundel County. I found it very enlightening and helpful. It gave me a little more confidence in knowing that I don't know how to assist people in getting there life back to where they want it when I get right out of college.

With only having a year left, I was getting nervous that I may not be ready or right for this profession. Even though I have lots of little experiences that have helped me get to where I am, and I haven't twitch course of being a social worker (since 11th grade I have known that this is what I wanted to be). I have a few more people over the next few weeks that I am going to go and talk to hopefully and maybe I wont worry about it so much.

On a bright note, Kay emailed my mother and said that I had chosen the right profession and that I was going to do well in it. I just hope she is right.

I am suppose to go to Dan's house this afternoon, however I don't know if it is going to happen. Joe has stuff he has to do around the house, I need to get my car from the mechanic (oil change) and then I have to go yell at pepboys about screwing up my order. I wanted a LeBra for my Pontiac and instead I got a Covercraft that is for the wrong year and doesn't fit. Go figure... wrong make and year and it doesn't fit my car... Mike (mom's boyfriend, but more like a dad) is going to be scary for me and make them get me the right one without paying the 20% restocking fee.

Now it is 9:52 am

Here is my story...

I got to work 30 minutes early... my fault... and now it is an hour before I am suppose to leave, I already have my paycheck and the clock doesn't seem to want to speed up... out of the entire week... this is the slowest freaking day.

I got a phone call from Jackie confirming plans for tonight, however I did not know we were suppoes to do dinner. We had talked about last week when Joe's parents were up, however nothing had been set in stone... to my knowledge. Apparently Joe knew the actual date and I did not... now I feel bad for not following up, but I have been busy with work. To top is off, Joe isn't picking up his cell... again... and I don't know what is going on.

I am suppose to have dinner with my best friend tonight, and I am not going to change that unless somebody tells me what the hell is going on. Jackie says though that we can do dinner next monday night. Now that I have date... and no work on Monday... and no other plans... that is what I am leaning towards.

I would just like to talk to Joe.

To switch gears...

I am have done everything I can up to this point in helping Jordan get ready for college, now I have to just keep on top of things... make sure she keeps her doctors appointments and gets everything together. I have 3 months to teach her how to stay orgainzed... and if I can organize as well as the boys can program then I can teach Jordan how to keep her things together.

She now has a new sling bag, a new organizer with note taking places and calenders and all of her records (medical and for school) are nicely organized in folders... she just has to keep them that way.

I am sorry if this journal seems a bit random, but between work, Joe and Jordan I am too tired to look for a second job.

BTW: Jordan is my boss's granddaughter. She is 18, just graduated and a little lost. She applied to 3 colleges and got into two of them. She is now going to be attending Frostburg State University with me in the fall and is really excited. I just hope 3 months is long enough for her to get her stuff together. I don't know if 3 months is long enough to put a dent in the damage her other grandparents did for so many years.

I can only hope it is...

I have just completed my third year at Frostburg. Can't wait to be done.

I as suppose to go to Joe's house... He got called into work and even though he was suppose to be off 20 minutes ago, I haven't heard from him. Ten bucks he is half way home, dead tired and just wants to sleep. Which is okay, I just like to know what is going on.

I have work in the morning, and then dinner plans in the evening... I thought I was going to see the new Indiana Jones movie tomorrow with my mother, however she backed out. So maybe things will work out tomorrow. Oh well.

I have a job that I like in Glen Burnie, however... it is more like two jobs. I help my bosses granddaughter get ready for college... actually correction. I helped her get into to college, now I am doing all of the follow-up to getting into college: getting medical records together, housing contracts, and odds and ends.

Downside: She wont let me work more then 24 hours a week and I don't get paid that much to begin with. I can't quit the job because my boss is depending on me and she is a family friend. So my only other option is to pick up another job. However, to do that... means selling my soul. Except I can't do that... Not yet.

I found a job at a kennel on the weekends, except I would have to be up at 6am on Saturday's and Sunday's and I REALLY don't want to do that. The other option is to get a job at Micheal's crafts, however no one there seems happy. Only other option is to get a job where Joe works (he is a phone interviewer) but I am afraid that would kill our relationship... even if it is the best paying out of the three options...this wouldn't be a problem if it wasn't for my grandparents.

On a good note... tomorrow is payday and I have good plans for this weekend. Downside: I am very tired.

I have recently gotten back into photography and I have found that besides other certain things in my life... it brings great joy. It may not look like much, but it makes me happy.

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.